April 6, 2010
Distilled Water Fast today.
Today's Symptom's: Woke up again to strange chest and head pains. Very bad headache, terrible breath, light headed.
I stayed in bed ALL day. Spring Break is a good time to water fast since I don't have to get out of bed. My honey makes breakfast, the kids make their own lunch and play with their friends all day. I don't have to take or pickup anyone anywhere. There was left over dinner from last night so I didn't need to make anything. I stocked the fridge so Honey can make dinner tomorrow. Grateful that every one's okay.
Emotionally though...fasting is HARD. You do it alone. At least, I have no choice but to. No one calls. I think, no I don't know what they think?
You are isolated and suffering alone. No one can suffer for you. Pain and Looooooooon hours. Yet, somehow, I keep holding on to my faith in God and in my bodies ability to heal. I hold on to the day when I have overcome. I hold on for the day when I can rejoice in the blissful joy of experiencing freedom and vitality and health in this body beyond anything I can remember, and knowing that I have the power. I am powerful. I can do it. I will do it. I will heal.