May 1, 2010
Water with Apple Cider Vinegar
2 oz. wheatgrass
Breakfast: 30 oz. carrot, apple, celery, ginger, chard.
Lunch: 1 mango!
Dinner: 30 oz. grapefruit, orange, lemon, lime.
2+ oz. wheatgrass
Today's Symptom's: the phone woke me up at 4 a.m. and I had a very acidy stomach (from chewing food last night...), BM (from the Senna Tea), But overall I feel GREAT!
I've had a terrible couple of days. The tooth extraction and the misery from that, combined with going to the gyno and worrying about that have just been the perfect storm for me.
I started chewing and spitting out more food again as a comfort and distraction.
I gave myself permission because even while I tried to distract and find comfort by going to Women's Conference, church, reading my scriptures and continual prayers, going to the movies and shopping with friends just were not enough to quell the urges for comfort and need for relief!
I also have been feeling that my body has been telling me that it's time to break the fast. My breath is fresh. My tongue clean. Headaches gone. And the energy has been super high. The ONLY thing is the Lichen, which has just put me in a state of sadness and frustration and doubt and worry and anger! I of course rationally know that I need to be patient but it's just been SOOOOOO Looooong and with the agony of the tooth extraction in combination with everything else it just backed me into a corner where I've just felt NO ESCAPE!! I just can't put into words...
I've been using the Perrin's Blend cremes for 2 days now and the women who testified that it cleared up their Lichen said it took 2 months.
So, although I am NOT doing a complete juice feast for 70 days, as the woman with psoriasis did. I have to take about 10 days to BREAK my fast (1 day for every 4 days of fasting) followed, of course, with my raw food diet which is also very healing so, that's just going to have to be ENOUGH!?
On the POSITIVE note.... I am proud of myself!! Yay Me!!!
I juice feasted and water fasted for 60 days!!!!!
I will focus on THAT! What I have accomplished! It's incredible!
I WISH I had medical documentation of what my body really did? I bet it would be amazing to know for a fact what cleansing occurred at a deep tissue, cellular and vascular level. The gall, kidney and liver stones and cysts/tumors/lesions that I may have had unknowingly that dissolved. (We know about the worms!)
The plaque in my arteries and cholesterol levels reduced. All of the chemicals and toxins that were stored in 20 pounds of fat released. The balancing of nerves and hormones and restoration of proper function to the organs. The cleansing and much needed rest of the digestive system. Perhaps even the years added to my life will never be known for sure. BUT, rest assured, these things have happened!
Not to mention all of the emotional healing, release, learning, and observations I have made about myself. REALLY looking DEEPLY into the mirror of my soul, has been worth the effort! ABSOLUTELY!
I LOVE the juices! They will continue to be a part of my daily diet. I definitely want to keep one as a daily meal. Perhaps alternating with a green smoothie or doing both and having one gourmet raw dish at dinner. I look forward to sit-down "fork and knife" dinners again with my kids!
I also want to incorporate fasting and feasting as a yearly "Spring Cleaning". 60 days? Don't know? I've heard that the more often you fast, the less time it takes to detox and cleanse AND the less difficult.
I will fast monthly on Fast Sundays, of course.
I will water fast, if I ever get a cold.
I really think that overall it was hard and awesome! Terrifying and strengthening. I am powerful. I am determined. I am faithful and committed. I am strong. I've been to the depths of despair and have felt the highest joy! I have been scared to death and full of hope.
You see, we do the best that we can, NOT knowing what the outcome will be, having faith in God that HE will do the rest.
Here are some of my scribbled notes on my program from Women's Conference:
"Trust Him enough. He knows what is best for us."
"In ME your joy is full. I've heard (your) cries. I know (your) sorrows. I surely see (your) affliction."
On how to endure through a lengthy trial:
Focus on Joy.
Look forward and trust.
"He can see into the future."
"We can trust the Son of God."
"I am being prepared NOW in THIS life for the next."
"Be Humble, work hard and be patient.
"I am loved."
"Be of good cheer sister, do not fear."
"True inner peace comes from the Savior."
On why we sometimes have to suffer so much in this life. An answer to that question in prayer came as, "God needs brave daughters."
I AM A BRAVE DAUGHTER OF MY HEAVENLY FATHER. He has been, and IS supporting me. He surely does know my sufferings and my afflictions. He WILL heal me.
In Him I trust.