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We thank Thee for Thy Abundance

We thank Thee for Thy Abundance
Genesis 1:29

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Day 19 of Raw Food

December 19, 2010
Weight: 150.8

Breakfast: Green Smoothie with Spinach, Orange, Lemon, Banana, Pineapple, Blueberries, and Strawberries, Chia Seeds and Udo's Oil.

Lunch: Veggies (Broccoli, Celery, Carrots, Cauliflower, Green Pepper) with Creamy Cashew Dill Dip made of Cashew, water, lime, green onion, apple cider vinegar, ume plum vinegar, and dill.

A Spoonful of Raw Honey. (Do I always have to say "raw"? Just know that EVERYTHING I eat is raw..)

Dinner: My bread with avocado, dijon mustard, tomato and cucumber.

Dessert: Whipped Cream made of Cashews, fresh squeezed OJ, agave, vanilla and pinch of sea salt with bananas and blueberries! YUMMY!

I feel SO good! I am doing So good! Amidst mega-stress right now! I'm so proud of myself! Greatful for tender mercies of the Lord.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Day 17 of Raw

December 17, 2010

Weight: 151.2 as of yesterday the 16th day. That is a weight loss of 8 lbs. 1/2 a pound a day!

Well, I have missed blogging and thought I could catch up...but no way.

My husband had his birthday on the 15th and among 20 other things I have been SWAMPED! But, despite all of the stress of these things PLUS Christmas, I have remained raw!
I have had to eat out a lot these past 3 days because of it and am so happy to say that I've been able to do it. How, you say?
Well, I WANT to be raw.
I KNOW that I am being supported by friends and even my family!
On his birthday my husband mentioned going to a favorite Thai restaurant and I actually said, "Sure, It's your birthday, I'll just eat a soup, Tom Ka, and it's okay to eat cooked I guess on your birthday." (Can you believe I ACTUALLY decided to eat cooked?) To which my husband replied, "No, I don't want you to go off raw."
(How sweet was that?) And just like that, just that simple reply of love and support from him woke me up and strengthed me and made me feel so good keeping me on the "straight and narrow". I love him so much and am so grateful for him.

I can't stress enough the importance of support. Support from spouse, family, or friends. ANY kind of support. It is vital to maintaining this lifestyle.
The other reason I was able to stay raw was having some CHOICES of places to eat or simply BEING PREPARED.

I went to Jamba Juice several times and got wheatgrass, fresh squeezed Orange juice or Carrot juice or both combined together.
I stopped at the health food store and had with me some Gone Nuts or Kale Chips or a simple apple or banana. Keeping these things in the car at all times is super smart!
Most grocery stores have prewashed and even pre-cut packaged produce that you can just run in and pick up for a meal. REAL fast food!
Even in a pinch you can just get a plain salad just about ANYWHERE!

On my husbands birthday we went to a fancy restaurant for lunch and I told the waitress about my "special diet" and asked if she would ask the chef to make me a large entree with all of the fresh vegetables of the day along with an E.v.O.O and balsamic vinagrette.
I'm learning that restaurants, nicer ones especially, are more than happy to make you something special. I've heard that chefs actually LIKE the challenge.
For dinner we went to Carrabbas (an Italian chain.) The result was the same! They made me a delicious and beautiful salad!
I've read somewhere about making a laminate card that says something like this, "Dear Chef, I have a special diet and only eat fresh, raw fruits, veggies, nuts, and seeds. Could you please make me an entree with all of your fresh foods of the day. Nothing cooked. Thank you so much!" Then, you can just pass it to the waitress when ordering in front of others without having to say a word and not even bring it up, hence, not making any big deal out of it. I LOVE that idea! We go out to eat to have fun with the PEOPLE we are with. Why have I always made it about the food?? I think I get it now. :)

Another thing that has kept me strong is REMEMBERING the past. It goes something like this: "Don't you remember how you felt after eating that?" or "Yes, that bread looks fantastic, BUT, (squeezing fat around my belly) it makes this on my body and you know what? I don't want it on my body anymore. I'm done with it. I loved you Bread once, but, you are just not good for me anymore. No more. I've got something new, something better."

The definition of sacrifice is the giving up of something good for something better.

Giving up food that tasted good but made me feel bad or sick and depressed me and was leading me to heart disease, obesity, and cancer, for food that tastes good and is better for me, that makes me feel good, leading me to health, a beautiful body, and longevity is my definition of "sacrifice" on this lifestyle.

Today's food:

Breakfast: Water. Green Smoothie of dark kale, orange, lemon, strawberries and blueberries, chia seeds, and Udo's Oil

Lunch: Green Juice with Dark Kale, Cilantro, Celery, Cucumber, Apple, Carrot, Lime, Beet with Greens.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Day 13 of Raw

December 13, 2010

Breakfast: 4 c. Green Smoothie with Spinach, lemon, orange, mango, strawberries, blueberries, chia seeds and Udo's Oil.

Dinner: Big Greek Salad like yesterday except with avocado and walnuts.

Very stressful day today: Taught my exercise class, meeting with my son and his school counselor, dentist (had a crown removed and got drilled and then found out that I need to have a root canal tomorrow....), took kids to their dentist, got dinner, and am now lying in bed.

I got veggie Chinese food for the family and was tempted. I LOVE Chinese food! Being stressed and tired is usually a trigger to pig out for me. But, I am flexing my willpower muscles and getting stronger every day by remembering how crappy I feel when I eat the "olden ways".

Good job Me!

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Day 12 of Raw

December 12, 2010

Breakfast: 8 oz. of a Green Smoothie made of spinach, orange, lemon, banana, mango, pineapple, strawberries, blueberries, Udo's Oil, & chia seeds.

1 t. Spirulina in water.

Lunch: Veggie Sandwich

Veggie Juice: 40 oz. carrot, cucumber, celery, cilantro, lime, apple.

Dinner: Big Greek Salad with romain, red onion, tomato, carrot, cucumber, kalamata olives, and help seeds with a e.v.o.o dressing with agave, salt, pepper, oregano, basil, lemon juice, and red wine vinegar.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Day 11 of Raw

December 11, 2010

Weight: 153.4

Breakfast: Green Smoothie with orange, lemon, bananas, spinach, & blueberries.

Lunch: Veggie Open-faced Sandwiches

Treat: Cinnamon Pecan Cacao Truffles from "The Art of Raw Living" by Doreen Virtue and Jenny Ross and Oatmeal Cacao Nib Cookies from Raw Melissa's (Melissa Chappell) new recipe book called "Faves"!

Dinner: Pomegranate and Orange

Friday, December 10, 2010

Day 10 of Raw

December 10, 2010

Breakfast: 24 oz. Citrus Bliss

Lunch: Green Smoothie with Spinach, Banana, Mango, Orange, Lemon, Udo's Oil Blend, and Chia Seeds.

1 T. Spirulina mixed with water

Snack: Gone Nuts Cilantro Lime Mojo

Dinner: Big Salad and Teriyaki "Gone Nuts"

Tonight was my husbands company Christmas party! When we arrived, I asked the server to ask the Chef if he would make me a big salad as my main course because I had a special diet and didn't eat cheese, meat, dairy, or cooked foods.

They had a little/teenee salad already on the tables along with desserts and rolls. The salad was covered in feta cheese and candied nuts and sugared cranberries. The main dish was chicken rolled up with some spinach cheesey filling, rice and I think there were like 2 baby carrots and asaparagus. Portion size was small.

You should've seen everyones eyes when my salad plate arrived! Someone said "Wow! Did the Chef make that just for you? That's wonderful!" It was a HUGE salad with lettuces, spinach, grape tomatoes, cucumber, carrots, & asaparagus. Served with a gluten free raspberry vinegrette! It was awesome! I was so pleased and was also very glad to be a good example and still be able to eat a delicious meal at a catered work party without bringing my own food! It was awesome!

Day 9 of Raw

December 9, 2010
Breakfast: Green Smoothie with orange, lemon, spinach, mango, banana

Lunch: Veggie Sandwich

Dinner: 2 huge salads from Jason's Deli. They have an all you can eat salad bar with some organic produce and sprouts for 8 bucks!

Desert: A Grape fruit

Still feeling like I'm detoxing. Sore throat, cough, and tired.

Christmas shopping with a friend and out to eat I am so grateful that there are places a raw foodist can go to eat!

Raw Food Support Group was awesome! 11 people came! How to keep everyone from staying until 11 p.m.............

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Day 8 of Raw

December 8, 2010
Weight: 154 (no change?)

Breakfast: Citrus Bliss

Lunch: 42 oz. Celery, carrot, cucumber, cilantro, lime, apple juice.

Snack: My oh so favorite "Blessings Alive and Radiant Foods Cheeziyes" Kale Chips.

Dinner: "Living Intentions Gone Nuts White Chocolate" cashew and almonds and also their "Thai Curry" SO, so, SOOOOOOOOO amazingly delicious! I sort of (totally) pigged out on them......I am grateful for yummy snacks like those to "fill in the gaps" to overcoming cooked foods.

Snack: Half of a mandarin orange.

I went to my Relief Society Christmas Party tonight. They had a dinner and wonderful entertainment. It was kind of nice to focus on the people and not the food. We always surround ourselves with food and I realize now how it distanced me from deeper connections with people because my focus was ALWAYS on the food. Seriously.

I also am noticing that eating was a way to distance myself from others.
"Don't bug me...I'm eating"! It's a sort of "wall" to be eating instead of talking and interacting with others. I don't know...I'm just observing myself and my feelings.

When you eat raw, you are also raw emotionally. I didn't like being the only one not eating. I felt out of place. I was going to bring something to eat, but I wasn't hungry and I don't like to eat that late (6:45 p.m.) I also didn't want to eat something "different" in front of everyone. It feels wrong to be like "I don't eat YOUR food". That doesn't seem right either, so I went with just not eating.

It's a tough thing. Honestly I would rather fit in with everyone....I LOVE all those women and they are my FRIENDS! I don't want to make them feel bad. But I also want to heal and live a long healthy life. I have to do what's right for me.

It's just tough. I don't want to make other feel "bad" or "wrong", and sadly, It really does come across that way doesn't it? It's like a Mormon going to another church and not participating in what they are doing, or a non drinker going into a bar and not drinking. You know what I mean?

It's just one of the tough things about being different.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Day 7 of Raw

December 7, 2010
Breakfast: grapefruit

Later Breakfast: 40 oz. celery, carrot, apple, cucumber, cilantro, lime juice.

Lunch: Smoothie: Spinach, orange, lemon, banana, mango, pineapple.
Bowl of strawberries and blueberries

Dinner: Curry Cabbage Salad and Veggie Sandwich.

Snack: A few spoonfuls of Honey! Mmmmmmm!

Today was HARD! I had a mini anxiety thing happen that hasn't happened in over a year! I was at a friends annual church "Christmas Dessert" and I started to feel just a little strange, and then my heart started to race. It all lasted for about a minute or two. I went right through it without a hitch and figured that it must be because of stress and being so busy right now with my husbands birthday coming up and Christmas and my CD getting printed. I also think that it could be a detox thing. I have read that as you detox you retrack old illnesses. I don't know if that's true, but it sure would be nice to make sense of what happened today.

The temptation to quit was SUPER HARD today! When I feel down or depressed about something that has happened I want to eat! I want to eat comfort foods I am used to comforting myself with. My drug...
But, I remained strong. Knowing that I would have to post about it, and talk about it on Thursday night.
I just have faith. Faith that everything is going to work out and that the Lord will and is blessing me. I just have to endure to the end. I am strong and I will do it.
This is just day 7 and they say that it takes 21 days to break a habit.
Well, let's hope so!!

Monday, December 6, 2010

Day 6 of Raw

December 6, 2010
Hard day! I woke up feeling yucky. But had to get myself up and going to get my children off to school. We went to the funeral of my husbands uncle.
I felt kind of sick and grumpy. I can tell that I am missing my "drugs"....I start rationalizing in my head and the voices/demons keep telling me to quit and go out and get something to eat! It's really, really tough! But, what has made me resist? Knowing that I have a meeting on thursday!! I really wanted to "jump off the wagon" today. But, then I thought about how I ALWAYS feel when I've quit in the past. I tried to remember how bad I felt about myself for quitting and how I beat myself up and then fall into the pit of despair and depression.. and it worked!
I'm so proud of myself! I chose raw even through a tough day!

Breakfast: Mango Pudding: Blended spinach and mango.

snack: Rosemary Garlic Almonds and Pistachios

Lunch: Raw Pizza and Pumpkin Pie (at Gingers Cafe)

Dinner: Curry Salad: Green Cabbage, Green and Red Pepper, Red Onion, Raisins, Coconut meat, with a Cashew Curry Cream sauce.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Day 5 of Raw

December 5, 2010

Breakfast: water....

Dinner:Broke my fast with a veggie sandwich! It was hard to fast tonight. I defintely am feeling tempted today....It's hard having a "cooked" family when you're raw.....but I know I can do it. I've done it before.

Snack: Pomelo and grapefruit.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Day 4 of Raw

December 4, 2010
Breakfast: 2 Bananas

Lunch: Sandwich made with a raw bread that I made using UBraw Ming's recipe, avocado, sprouts, lettuce, tomato, cucumber, cashew mayo, and mustard.
And, a cinnamon pecan cacao truffle!

Snacks: Baby Carrots

Dinner: Spinach, Cranberry, Mandarin Orange, Walnut, Red Onion salad with an orange juice, balsamic, honey, e.v.o.o, salt and pepper dressing.

Busy day!

I went to pick up my first order from Bountiful Baskets at 8 a.m., then I went to pick up a CD, and I did some grocery shopping at The Good Earth, then home to practice with my family a Christmas book we are reading for our ward Christmas party, then went to the baptism of my foster sisters daughter, then off to the rehearsal, and then the party!

I didn't have a lot of time to eat, but felt just fine!

I am feeling wonderful, energetic and vibrant and light and very, very, happy!

I LOVE raw food and how eating it makes me feel!

Friday, December 3, 2010

Day 3 of Raw

December 3, 2010
Weight: 154.4

Breakfast: 6 oz. wheatgrass
34 oz. kale, celery, cilantro, cucumber, broccoli, carrot, apple, lime juice.

3 c. Green Smoothie with Spinach, orange, lemon, pineapple, banana, blueberry, strawberry and Udo's Oil 3.6.9 blend.

Snack: Living Intentions Cilantro Lime Mojo Pistachios & Pepitas. Yummy, Yum, YUM!!!

Feel like I'm detoxing today. Woke up with a sore throat, headache and feverish. But I still taught my exercise class and went grocery shopping..

Dinner: 30 oz. Citrus Bliss: Grapefruit, Orange, Lemon, Lime juice.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Day 2 of Raw!

December 2, 1010
Weight: Who cares! ( I forgot to weigh myself :p )

Breakfast: 30 oz. kale, carrot, celery, broccoli, apple, cilantro, lime juice.

Lunch: Raw "refried beans" (basically an almond pate with salsa ingredients.) on romaine leaves with salsa and avocado.
Some dates, apple slices and dehydrated apple slices.

Dinner: 30 oz. of kale, carrot, celery, broccoli, apple, cilantro, lime juice.

I went into action yesterday by first, blogging and then setting up a Raw Food Support Group! Yay! We are meeting TONIGHT at my house! How cool is that?
(I had formed a facebook page for raw fooders and just created an event!)

I am excited! Truly! For some reason getting "out of my head", including you and a support group, gives me so much strength! I won't make excuses if I know that I need to be accountable to others. No man is an island, and we just CANNOT make it through this life on our own. I thought I could do it on my own, but I can't. I tried and tried and tried and always let myself down. You know what? It's okay to need you. It's okay to need help. It's okay to need friends and a support group. I'm okay with it now. It's quite a weight lifted from off my head and shoulders (hopefully off my butt too! LOL!) I need others! And it's okay!

That is all.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

On and Off and On and Off

December 1, 2010

I'm back! I have learned so much about myself this past year. I have struggled a LOT with staying raw. On and off, On and off has been the perpetual cycle. Today, I am choosing to be ON!

Why I struggle to stay raw:
1. Eating for emotional reasons. The foods that bring me comfort...bread, chips, popcorn etc.

2. Cooking of my vegan husband and 4 children.

3. Socially. It's just easier (and funner) to go out to eat and eat what everyone else is eating and all of millions of restaurants that offer every kind of food imaginable!

4. It's yummy! It's what I've eaten my whole life (except for all together maybe a year of 100% raw and on and off for 2) It's what I'm used to!

5. It's fast and easily accessible and once in the clutches of "cookedome", which makes me lazy and frustrated and depressed and mad at myself. It's just a perpetual spiral down, down, down and it really hard to get back up. It's addictive and instant!

Okay, so? Excuses, excuses!

What keeps me from loving myself enough to do what is right? WHAT IS IT?!

So, I'm here to figure it out!

Well, what was different about me when I was 100% raw?

Why was I so strong? Strong enough that even being on an all you can eat 5 star cruise I remained 100% raw?? Where did that girl go??

Well, I know she's in there somewhere and I am going to find her!

Let's see,

1. I had just been through an extremely difficult "mystery" illness, scared half to death that I was going to die. Had gone to so many doctors and treatments and I was just filled with fear! THAT was my #1 motivation. To LIVE!

2. I was CONSTANTLY reading a book on raw food.

3. I was writting in my journal, or blogging here when I did a juice feast.

4. I was actively going to support groups or having one in my house. Raw Friends.

5. I was learning how to make so many delicious and fascinating recipes that I wasn't missing anything else.

6. I divorced myself from cooked foods. I could seriously look at all of the cooked stuff and be like, "I loved you once, but I don't want you anymore. I have a new love." I was SO committed, and it was EASY! (I want that back!)

So, Here are my goals to get on and stay on raw!

1. Blog here.

2. Create a support group, I don't know, weekly or biweekly in my home, or here.

3. READ a book or something online everyday about raw food.

4. Focus on completely healing ( I am still not healed from L.S.)

5. Feast on help from you!

6. Keep all of my favorite raw ingredients readily available in my home. (Avocados, pistachios, kale, raw bread on hand)

7. Spend at least 1 day a week preparing more complicated meals (dehydrated stuff like bread, crackers, chips, the stuff I crave cooked.) But keeping it pretty simple, not overwhelming, learning a new recipe each week.

8. Make a juice and smoothie everyday.

9. Keep 2-3 raw salad dressings in the fridge.

10. Always have a big salad prepared in the fridge.

11. Keep soaked nuts in the fridge ready to whip anything up.

So my friends, Will you help me? I've got to find that "Raw Girl" in me again.

I will do it this time! I know if I am accountable to you and not just myself, for now, until I can find "her", I will be able to do it.

Weight: 159.4 (CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!?)I was 152 the day before Thanksgiving......

Breakfast: 32 oz. kale, carrot, celery, apple, cilantro, lime, broccoli juice.

1 T. Spirulina mixed with 1/4 c. water. (yucky!)

Lunch: 3 c. greeen smoothie: Spinach, banana, pineapple, orange, lemon, blueberries, and strawberries.

Snack: Soaked in sea salt water and dehydrated pumpkin seeds.
1 Pecan Cocao Truffle.
(Gave me a headache...)

Juice: 20 oz. (Citrus Bliss) grapefruit, orange, lemon, lime juice.

Dinner: Raw stuffing (Buckwheat, pumpkin seeds, walnuts, onion, carrot, celery, parsley, green pepper) Cranberry Sauce (Cranberries, dates, pineapple, apple)

I made it through Day 1 with your help! Thank you!